Friday, October 13, 2006
okay i havent been in a good mood
for quite a while now.
you all must be thinking
"huh? but she's okay in school
&all that what."
the optimistic me is all an act, people.
now you know .
i might be smiling &laughing on
the outside but
deep inside i'm screaming .
from the start i promised myself
i wouldnt let myself sink too deep.
but, i broke my own promise.
ahh
this week hasn't been good at all .
with you,
i have to dig deep into places
i didn't know i had .
i used to be a girl who would'nt
fall in love .
i'd sort of glance down and
realize i was mired in it .
but with you
i just had to look into your eyes
&feel the world spinning beneath my feet .
i saw in your soul
all the things that were
missing in mine .
i'm not ready for this to end,
not yet.
i was talking to jessica
last night &suddenly her boyfr
called her so she had to go .
the whole night i lay on my bed
covered by my blanket
imagining the murmur of two voices.
that used to be me &you,
i thought.
eyes open, heart broken
i cried myself to sleep again .
5:45 PM